IrenicEmbers

It was slowly driving me nuts that the other layout didn’t come with a date/time stamp on posts so I quickly activated this new one. It’s only temporary.

The last few days have been spent around Seattle and in a lot of pubs. Have a ton of pics that I’ll probably post to Flickr in a few days. It sucks being the designated driver sometimes but I thorougly enjoyed watching my friend Gen and Nick get drunk.

We’re up early, getting ready to go with my wonderful friend Genevie to church. She promised that I won’t burst into flames.

I hope you are having a wonderful time as well with you and yours.

Sorry, I couldn’t think of a title today, I appears that I’m in a royally douche-y mood. Sometimes I need a really long cry and today was that day.

I woke up at 6am to make breakfast and lunch for Nick (it’s the least that I can do since he’s become my suga daddy). And, during making coffee, I just started tearing up. For no reason.

Then I got on the Internets after he left and found out a girl from high school had a brain tumor and died two years ago. That really set me off. So, now I’m in a heap because I am feeling sorry for myself and sorry for the world.

Gawd, I’m such a mess.

We went driving in the snow today in Nick’s Jeep Rubicon because it was so spectacularly white. Everywhere. It was like driving through a fairytale. I’ll have those pictures later, right now I’m immensly tired.  Both of us have headaches too so we’re calling it early tonight.

Last night was plagued by dreams of all types and craziness.

Earlier in the night though, peeking through the window, this was what I saw:

Today was such an odd day. We were supposed to head out tonight to celebrate a friend’s birthday but they cancelled due to a storm.  Nick came home a bit late from work with a snotload of stuff from the store after I specifically told him to get me three things: garlic, meat for a soup and bread for grilled cheese sandwiches.

Instead this:

Then, I fell into watching some movies, something that I haven’t done in ages.

The first one, even though I love, (LOVE) Robin Williams, he always seems so creepy in these roles. Jim, well I refer to him as Jim from the Office, plays the same role over and over. It gets tiring.  It was a cute and predictable movie. 

The second one, another Office person, was Dan, in Real Life.  I love Steve Carell and it was kinda fun seeing him in this role. Juliette Binoche though, I can pass up.

Third movie and this is why I’m still up at 4am, was P.S, I love you. That’s when I broke down, not because I cannot stand Hilary Swank but because of the topic.

See, it’s about this chick that loses her husband. And Swank wasn’t believeble at all. It was a piss poor performance, but the reason that I kept bawling was that I’m an emotional wreck sometimes. Also, I live in perpetual fear that something will happen to Nick before me and that sickens me to the point of almost paralysis.

Far cry from being the independent, I-can-survive-by-myself girl that I was several years ago but when you spend so much time with someone and you love them to the point of aching …. you never want to let them go.

Gosh, the weather really isn’t doing much for my mood tonight and maybe it’s time I get some sleep.